~I worry about being able to do this whole 'Temple thing'. I've already seen how much hatred the idea has generated and it's not even taken seriously yet, just the rantings of a fat old man in a double wide in the middle of fucking nowhere.
I know that once it actually starts to manifest that the hate will as well. If I'm such a blubbering mess over the death of one little kitty cat, how will be able to handle the first time one of our Sisters 'dies for the cause'?
This is one of those moments when I wish I could give this up and just hide. Yet I know full well I cannot. I'll just have to take it when it comes, Goddess help me.