"The concept of Unconditional Love is an awful trap. All relationships are based upon need. We need to eat. We need to breath. We need companionship. So even the saint who supposedly 'loves unconditionally' feels some satisfaction and nourishment from their Unconditional Loving and thereby has their 'saintly needs' fulfilled.
Just have your feelings in an Authentic fashion and allow yourself to have your needs might as best you can. Yes, it's messy, but it is also human and that is in fact the path that you are on.
Our Divine Imperfection can be a wonderful thing if we truly accept it. Doing so means when you get up each morning you always know what you're going to do today."