On Women Being Just As Savage As Men....

"I use the behavior patterns of serial killers to make my point in this regard, which some dismiss as 'too extreme', but for the underlying tendencies of each sex to be effectively contrasted, one needs to examine the extremes, to look at where each sex goes when truly pushed.

The first pattern is the Raw Numbers. Male serial killers outnumber their female counterparts by a good ten to one and kill in greater numbers, as well.

The second pattern is the Methodology. Males tend to 'violate and butcher'; stabbing, shooting, rape, mutilation [which is often sexual in nature], dismemberment, 'trophy taking' [again often of a sexual nature], cannibalism and necrophilia. Females tend to poison and pass the death off as accidental or simply hide the corpse.

The third pattern is Motivation and this is the key to the above. Males tend to kill for power over their victims, who are overwhelmingly female and frequently prostitutes, easy targets, 'invisible and disposable', which also makes them 'morally deserving' of their fate from many a killer's point of view.

Females almost always kill for financial gain – the classic Black Widow who kills for insurance - or for 'self esteem' – the hospital Angel of Death who kills to 'end suffering'. Yes, these are also about gaining power, but killing tends to be a route to such, not the destination itself.

Even the great Exception That Proves The Rule, Aileen Wuornos, kept killing for money. Her first kill was survival, the beautiful irony that she likely killed a serial killer who had targeted her. And her rage at her own life long sexual abuse drove her on. But to me that just facilitated her emotions. She used the money from her victims to provide for her girlfriend, so you could say she killed for love.

Now there are men who do the same thing, but they also tend do it in the same way. They kill the victims of their robberies to keep from getting captured and tend to do so 'plain and simple', with none of the intimate ritual of the sexual serial killer.

Women will kill to protect their children and their homes and will do so with great savagery. But as a rule, they don't kill merely to feel powerful. That is almost exclusively The Male's domain."

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Random

~Lately my dreams have been good, far happier than my waking, so I have been staying in bed a lot. I suppose that could be classified as depression, but I'd use a small 'd'. A large part of that is external. Unless you're a stone Sunshine Nazi, even a casual perusal of any news feed you care to choose will get you some kind of depressed.

And part of this is sadness. Goddess Knows I have armies of regret. Besides my own 'life issues' of the “I coulda been a contender” variety, a significant motivation for the Work I do is a living amends to the women I have hurt in my life or the ones I could not 'save'. I have come to truly accept that I could never 'save' anyone other than myself, but those I wished...well, that still hurts not matter how much Wisdom I have garnered.

Last Sunday was my mother's birthday. In the weeks proceeding I entertained the idea of some sort of acknowledgment of the event. But, in the end, I could find nothing that didn't seem as if it couldn't be misinterpreted as something else negative. Which it likely would.

And I have been sad ever since....

She has always hated 'heartfelt letters' and the like. I suppose they make her feel and she has never wanted to face that. I guess it's all too painful for her, all her armies of regret.

So I have to accept that she will probably go to her grave without us ever resolving any of this, which I can do. I'm tougher than I sound when I'm whining like this. The sadness however...that I'll likely take to my grave.

Nebs Sez

"I know I bitch and moan about DOOM all the fucking time too, but at least I leaven that a bit with music vids, cat macros and random weird shit."


...at least that's what I do on my Live Journal..here, not so much..

Unhappy

~I'm kind of disheartened right about now. Working on The Explanation isn't easy, especially when I never seem to get any feedback or acknowledgment when I post anything here that relates to it...except of course for the crap I got from a now former LJ 'friend'. And even then, though I did 'compose a response' in my head, my disheartenment made me say, “Fuck it. Why bother?”

One of y'all did get on my case lately about finishing the thing, saying she's being 'showing it around', but has to lug her laptop to do so, which did motivate my a bit and underscores the need for a hard copy paper volume....

What's prompted this disheartenment is the total silence on my last Cyber Witch story, A Day In The Life. No one said a fucking word about it anywhere. I suppose nobody gets that it is part and parcel of The Explanation, one of many windows into what I speculate this New Matriarchy could look like. In fact the largest section of The Explanation is dedicated to that very thing: Part Six “Stories and Works”. [had to do a Part One [Intro/Near Future] and a Part Two [Far Future] because of text limits] And there's an addendum with my early efforts in that direction: Addendum B “Tales of The Vēkkan Cults”.

I often feel like I'm just sitting here in the middle of the night out in Southwest Buttfuck Nowhere ranting into the empty darkness. And it's getting harder and harder to 'reset and refocus' and each time I have to do so it pushes the finish line further back until maybe it will be too late to matter anymore...which I'm sure would please some who either think I'm a just fucking loon or believe this Work to be innately evil.

I don't know what else to say....

Nebs Sez

"We are led by the least among us because most humans are vile ignorant scum and it is they who are 'led to choose' those who lead."

Nebs Sez x2

"I believe that all Public Utilities - water, electricity, health, transport, roadways, phones, internet - should be just that: public, as in state owned and non-profit. I'll take govt inefficiency over corporate rapacity any day. Not that I'm holding my breath over any of that mind you"

"I saying just saying this morning that there's all this screaming about The Gay Agenda, but nothing about The Corporate Agenda and how I'd rather go with The Gay Agenda because with that at least I'd get a kiss and a reach-a-round while I was being fucked in the ass."

Quote of The Day

"And it always results in victory for one side and defeat for the other. It’s set up to do that. It’s imported the worst excesses of market fundamen-talism into the one arena that used to be safe from them, the one part of our public and social life that used to be free of the commercial pressure to win or to lose, to survive or to die, which is the very essence of the religion of the market. Like all fundamentalists who get their clammy hands on the levers of political power, the market fanatics are going to kill off every humane, life-enhancing, generous, imaginative and decent corner of our public life. I think that little by little we’re waking up to the truth about the market fanatics and their creed. We’re coming to see that old Karl Marx had his finger on the heart of the matter when he pointed out that the market in the end will destroy everything we know, everything we thought was safe and solid. It is the most powerful solvent known to history. “Everything solid melts into air,” he said. “All that is holy is profaned.”" ~Philip Pullman Leave the libraries alone